an irony of life

allow me to call it an irony of life. it was more than a month since we left home. we decided to part ways. and i wanted to set my life away from the hurtful past. and since it's hurtful, i would always aim to forgetting about it. i admit i wanted to untie everything and officially remove everything that would link and remind me of him.

but today, it was a different day. today, i fixed all my papers and prepare my docs for my pre employment. oh yes, it's going back to working mode. i was hired yesterday and was offered one great deal that i was not able to resist

. well, let me go back to 'my irony' i spent the day, updating my surname and my status. from being single to married. if' you'd ask how i felt about it, well i guess i have gotten this immunity that i did not feel bitter and hurting whenever I sign a new name and check on a new status. i find it so crazy because i would never want to go back, i just want to be free and move on. i just want to live and be happy with my son. i do not want to recall the bad times. but i spent my whole long day, seeking ways on how i can change my surname and my status. and i might regret it tomorrow for i may not be able to change it again next time...hahahaha that is if there's next time... can i just revert back to my maiden name and be single for good? that sounds nice to me...but it'll cost me a lot and i can't afford to spend a single dose of energy for that matter at the moment..maybe tomorrow when i have enough resources. in the meantime, allow me to tag this day as an irony of life.